Will there be singing?
There will be singing.
Of the dark times.
- Bertolt Brecht
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0830 workout
0930 meditation with Tess
1100 authentic movement with Katie
1230 soak beans
1300 file for unemployment
1430 critical correspondence meeting
1600 call with Yanira
1700 family check-in
1800 cry
1900 bang pot/pan on rooftop
1930 dinner
2100 tv
2230 sleep
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Hope
In/visibility comes in/out in different ways. Lies or truth/less. Eyes closed or open. Exhuming fossils and two-headed monsters are my go-tos. (Constant excavating…) “Try to disappear” is one of my favorite prompts. Always change and defy a definition. It comes and goes. I came, and went. And you didn’t even notice. Once you set up the lie, you’ll have them questioning everything after.
Lists Help
I made lists of things I would do if I ever had extra time left to my own devices. I would clean out my hard drive. I would reread old journals and tackle some dead Russians. I would learn a language. I would gain a completely new skill. When I can bring myself to look at these to-dos scribbled on a scrap piece of paper on my desk and select one to tackle, my mind is occupied for a while and I forget to look at the news.
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